WHOA...the floodgates have opened!

ok, i don't have long to write,
 
but bascially, yesterday was one of the most amazing yet difficult days to date.
 
I was ectastic over putting my first and second ever IVs in, my first spinal, my first male catheter and first DRE.  But I also left the OR at 9:30pm in tears.
 
The injustice of it all.
i couldn't take it anymore,
i just cried and sobbed over our last case.
Why such pain and suffering?
the contrast between doing an elective in BC and in Angola in an OR.....
 
i don't think i'm gonna be a surgeon. i suck at it.
love,
s