I can hardly keep my eyes open

I only slept for ~3 hours last night. Actually, since Thanksgiving Weekend, I have only slept for maybe 4 hours per night. I tell people that I'm getting myself ready for clerkship, when you spend up to 36 hour shifts sometimes covering call in the hospital. But that's just silly. If i am so sleep-deprived now, it's only going to make me more "zzzzzzzz-debted" come Jan 2005.

Yesterday was INTENSE (for many reasons, none of which i want to go into right now). In many ways it was a breakthrough time alone and with God. Eventhough I still can't really feel a palpable, tangible, familiar presence from God, I felt that in brokeness and rawness and pain and thankfulness and gratefulness, i was able to fling myself at Him.

And I was able to cry. Wait, more like sob. No, 'bawling my eyes out" as I worshipped God is more accurate. The range of emotions and feelings you can feel in a 24-hr cycle is truly quite profound. Wow. Now i'm going to sleep. I need it. Tommorrow I have to be up at the Mac Hospital Emerg. THanks to both Amandas for your encouragement. I love you both so much!!!
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