the day before

May 8th, 2006

Well, it's the day before my board exam, and all I can say is that God has been more than amazing.
He has literally been my Everything and my One Strong Tower amidst a truly difficult last week. PTL!

This morning, in the gym, while i was doing the shoulder press, Steven Curtis Chapman's song
"Magificent Obsession" was playing. It literally stopped me in my tracks.

Truly my heart's desire:

"Return me to the Cross, let me be completely lost...
Cut through these chains that tie me down to so many lesser things
let all my dreams fall to the ground, until this one remains...

This is everything I want, this is everything I need
I want this to be my one consuming passion
Everything my heart desires, Lord I want it all to be
all for you, Jesus,
be my Magificent Obsession...."

I love you Jesus,
shermeen

A poem I wrote

May 3rd, 2006

Hey guys, i just found a poem I wrote April 14, 2004, more than 2 years ago. Thought i'd post it:

<<<<<<<<

There’s a path winding through the woods

A path well-trodden by the passage of time

Where I found a man sprinting, running hard

Down this hurried path leading…nowhere

On his back, many things; trophies & lead

On his side, more prizes, to add to his bid

To reach the height of man-this nothingness

Called Life, Success, the greatest Lie

He stops, looks back, & knows He’s being chased

Yet he ducks to the prize-laden side of the path

To indulge, it’s happiness, no doubt, I love it too

But though it satisfies now, it will not last long

For a moment he escapes, but the chase resumes

From Someone who knows where this path leads to

“Why do you run in rejection of me?

When the Ransom’s been paid to set you free?

I’ve come down from heaven, I’ve hung on a tree

I’ve risen & chased, till you can see me

Why do you choose this path of sin?

Why do you eat what will not fill?

When everything around you screams of me

The chase is over, now it’s your turn

What will YOU say on account of ME?”

>>>>>>>>>>

love, Shermeen

I'm Back!

May 1st, 2006

Hey everyone! I'm so sorry, i kinda disappeared off the face of the blog-earth since Nov of last year! As I read the last post, i realised that i haven't written since the LAST CMDS conference in New Brunswick and I JUST came back from the CMDS conference this year in Kelowna, BC!!

Well, truth be know, i'm actually procrastinating at the moment. My last med school assignment is due in a couple of hours. I am only just starting it but it should be done in 1 hr. (phew!)

I had one of the most fantastic and impactful (is that a word?) conference this past weekend. If I explained why(s) exactly, it would take too long. I guess it was a time of deep fellowship and amazing teaching with fresh and profound new insight. And also, it was incredibly affirming as God has been laying some thematic revelations in my life in the past few months with regard to life in general, but particularly career/ministry and it just seemed like the conference came at the best possible timing.

The funny thing is as passionately as I have stated the above, I am also feeling just as 'un-nerved' by how God truly is God. As in, He can do whatever, and I mean whatever he wants to do, however He desires. So it's this interesting tension where I may think i 'know' what God is calling me to do for these next few years, but at the very same time, I have this huge awareness (and struggle, i guess) that He can also totally change that direction at any time for any reason.

Kinda like when I found myself on the Bristol Channel in wales, UK after Grade 11.
hmm....

I'm starting to feel tired now. Came back from Kelowna at around 12:20am, then got ready for bed, then called my best friend Hengz (as she just got back from the UK), chatted till 3am, then slept. And then I had one of those nights again...where I must have slept deeply but was awakened to pray. And then finally gave up and seriously prayed and read the bible around the 'God-speaking' hour of 5am. He doesn't do it often, but he's woken me up around that time a few times in my life to pray about certain things. Then i went to the gym at 7am for a great workout and well...now i'm in the midst of procrastinating.

;0)
I'm overwhelmed by everything God revealed at the conference.
Feels great as well!
Fresh insight...forever learning...and forever learning how to surrender and fall in love with God deeper.

s