I'm Back!

May 1st, 2006

Hey everyone! I'm so sorry, i kinda disappeared off the face of the blog-earth since Nov of last year! As I read the last post, i realised that i haven't written since the LAST CMDS conference in New Brunswick and I JUST came back from the CMDS conference this year in Kelowna, BC!!

Well, truth be know, i'm actually procrastinating at the moment. My last med school assignment is due in a couple of hours. I am only just starting it but it should be done in 1 hr. (phew!)

I had one of the most fantastic and impactful (is that a word?) conference this past weekend. If I explained why(s) exactly, it would take too long. I guess it was a time of deep fellowship and amazing teaching with fresh and profound new insight. And also, it was incredibly affirming as God has been laying some thematic revelations in my life in the past few months with regard to life in general, but particularly career/ministry and it just seemed like the conference came at the best possible timing.

The funny thing is as passionately as I have stated the above, I am also feeling just as 'un-nerved' by how God truly is God. As in, He can do whatever, and I mean whatever he wants to do, however He desires. So it's this interesting tension where I may think i 'know' what God is calling me to do for these next few years, but at the very same time, I have this huge awareness (and struggle, i guess) that He can also totally change that direction at any time for any reason.

Kinda like when I found myself on the Bristol Channel in wales, UK after Grade 11.
hmm....

I'm starting to feel tired now. Came back from Kelowna at around 12:20am, then got ready for bed, then called my best friend Hengz (as she just got back from the UK), chatted till 3am, then slept. And then I had one of those nights again...where I must have slept deeply but was awakened to pray. And then finally gave up and seriously prayed and read the bible around the 'God-speaking' hour of 5am. He doesn't do it often, but he's woken me up around that time a few times in my life to pray about certain things. Then i went to the gym at 7am for a great workout and well...now i'm in the midst of procrastinating.

;0)
I'm overwhelmed by everything God revealed at the conference.
Feels great as well!
Fresh insight...forever learning...and forever learning how to surrender and fall in love with God deeper.

s