How did I find myself here?

WOW...i can scarcely believe it. It seemed like time warpped itself as I sat in the infamous HSC 1A1 lecture room where we first began Day 1 of O-week for medical school last September. And now, one week and one exam away from being thrust into "go play doctor", we all gathered once again, probably for the last time in many many months for our 'Welcome To Clerkship' talk. If this was our 'Ra-rah-rahhrrgh' event into the great abyss, the fear-factor, the .... then I was in no mood for it. I felt kinda bad about that. I should've savoured every last minute of this 4.5 hr talk...afterall, it WAS our send-off...but my 'headaches-that-2-Advils-can't-cure-anymore' and my 'the-room-is-angled-dizzyness' and my general state of mind did not lend itself kindly.

But still, it was a profound moment, one that i wanted to reflect and savour. Except that I wanted even more badly to be at prayer mtg at church...so i took off at 7:25pm only to be greeted by my car clock that read 6:37pm...i realised, i had be tricked by the time change 2 weeks ago! lol!

Prayer was awesome! WOW. It can't be said enough: lest not us be arrogrant and complacent and think that momentum and creativity can sustain a church or ministries...it is, I believe the very power of prayer, not in the eloquent phrases of our hearts and mouths, but just the realisation that we need to bow down and cry out to God, to the Prime Mover to have mercy and grace to torrent us with His Spirit and move!

Last week was crazy. I forgot how nice and tough it is to study for consecutive hours for consecutive days. The exam went well, PTL! I have another exam on tues (a 'bell-ringer' clinical scenarios exam). Tommorrow, I am playing in the Mac Open Badminton Tournament. This is a funny story. I entered it online but thought it was full already. Then i get this email this week saying that i'm entered into the women's singles event. (what the!??) I haven't played badminton seriously since high school!!!! YIKES!! I'm both stressed and excited about it! Who cares if i make a fool of myself...i love playing! (even if i get eliminated after my first game!) oh dear!

These past few days have been very profound days for me. Both painful but illuminating and great. To those who were wondering and asking about my self-declared 'nun status'...i'm afraid i can't give you an answer. (but tell me if you want to join my order!) Partly cos I don't truly know myself, and partly because i don't want to broadcast my 'nun thoughts' over WWW. (email me) ;0)
love,
s